I have heard that laughter is the best medicine. This complements my observation that being serious is the worst diesease. I associate being serious with being tense, expectatious, asumptious, and easily slipping into problem seeking. While non-seriousness exhibits the qualities of playfullness, light heartedness, experimentation, and gives a sense of openness and space in ourselves that keeps us from reacting to things but rather responding to them. What are the things we are most serious about... I wont start with the big taboos, like sex or... oh no, relationship :D---8 Blahhh. Thats okay ill feel better soon. Some sit on feelings of anger, depression, sorrow, I believe with a little non-seriousness, a little expression these things are hardly even temporary. Even things like the mourning process, which i recently experienced, although painful, is fleeting when its not taken as "serious" or "permanent" a good cry, and a let go will help. And in doing this with my own feelings I was taken deep into the process and glimpsed at death and felt it fully, and experienced it in myself. The fleeting nature of everything, it was very hard to bear... but beautifull because it opened my heart seeing deeply with all my guts that the things around me come and go. Just yesterday I was working with music and after some time began to feel bored. "Can I find something valuble in this?", I know its not permanent, if i keep digging I will find its end. So I put on another beat and started groaning in agony, moaning about how time was moving soo slowww, and how nothing can fill this immense gap of boredom. I went into it deeply , and in this way I found the end of it, the light at the end of the tunnel, and I was so suprised, because my boredom soon became uproarous laughter, I was laughing my ass off!! Ill post my track it is pretty damn funny! Anyways encouraging to find this little jewel in yourself, that these "things" that we go through are very temporary and fleeting when you dont take them as permanent or reinforce them by creating your self around them. Not every experience we have is a joy, a bliss, no im not saying that. But things like anger, boredom, sadness, happiness, jealousy can become quite fun when you allow yourself to go into them , find ways to express them, and even learn to express them beatifully :). These negative things you encounter can be turned into creative energies.Just a little courage, trust, to experiment. Some laughter and non-seriouness with these things. But it is up to you, how daring are you? How willing are you to surrender these experiences, and empty yourself? How willing are you to exhaust your joys, sufferings, strengths and weaknesses?
The man you see next to me in my picture is an old poet named Khalil Gibran
He writes these beatifull lines-
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
He is speaking about living totally, not picking and choosing, but using all and everything. Far out am I right? Okay I am filled with energy and further intention to write but will lay this posting to rest
Peace my readers and fellow beings
This piece is very wise and true, but it's a very hard truth to work through for some people such as myself. For example... 'these "things" that we go through are very temporary and fleeting when you dont take them as permanent or reinforce them by creating your self around them.' <---this line affects me personally because I tend to take every minor occurance in life into account, especially the bad ones, and feel as though I must change somehow to remedy them. That way of life leaves me with no solid founding of self, but rather, a myriad of shifting dispositions which constantly contradict and fight against one another. Each day I am a stranger to myself,I struggle with the question "who am I...?"
ReplyDeleteYes, I think that most everyone is looking for this feeling of being at home in themselves, everyone wants that security. When you ask yourself who am I, you can notice your current state of mind, what feelings you have, even just notice your bodies movements or posture. Different sides of your mind might come up like what you think of yourself, qualities people have ascribed to you, who you think others to be, and probably, stop asking this question! I am getting a headache! You will probably start feeling strange or confused asking this. It can be boring just asking yourself “who am I?” and watching. But in this confusion, boredom, weather you know it or not you’re bringing light through all those clouds. You can try it in all circumstances, I would ask myself bored in the classroom, "who am i?" and watch and await, like a curious child. Other times I would be active, like walking or something and ask this (Id forget to often) and again just watch my body moving, asking things like “who is moving my arms?” giving attention to their movements. Over time and frequently asking this, pausing to feel what was going on within, without, I naturally became more aware, constantly aware. It becomes quite an experience and really interesting, just looking at yourself with fresh eyes. You may start to feel a strange connectedness with yourself and a certain intimacy. You may feel creative states of mind. I remember after awhile feeling less afraid of cute girls, and this defiantly inspired me to continue: D . In math I would stop writing and just ask myself this, feel myself, be with myself, and then continue with what I was doing with greater creativity, I was writing a lot back then. I think that I will write more about this practice and other experiences it brought me to. Chelsea you are a wonderful girl, you feel like a really nice person. If you want to write again feel free.
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